One of the things i’ve always wanted to be (and show through my life + art) is authentic. I dont ever want people to see my life and think i have it all together. Truth is, I dont, the last 6 months have been a whirl wind and i’ve only just begun to feel grounded.
When I sat down and looked at what I wanted 2015 to look like I was stuck. I didnt know if I even wanted to continue on with photography. 2014 left me completely overwhelmed and not wanting to continue. Not because I didnt love it but because it scared the heck out of me.
All my friends are making friends, pursuing relationships and I’m editing all night.
All my friends are going to Uni and I’m pursuing a career at 19.
All my friends will have degrees in the next few years and I… wont.
I was scared, petrified. I was up every night, have i made the right choice? Should I go to uni? Should I give up on photography? Its something that would never leave my mind, I was riddled with fear, scared of failure and became uninterested in photography, my camera gathering dust. I was scrolling through pinterest (god bless pinterest) one day when I came across this quote:
“I was meant to be reckless. I was meant to be wild. I was meant to follow my dreams to the end of the earth. I see no point in preserving this fragile form for my eventual death. I was meant to slide into my grave sideways, beat up and singing at the top of my lungs. I was meant to pack up my shit and hitchhike to my dreams. Nothing good ever comes from sitting on your ass and waiting for life to give you fulfilment”
That pretty much sums out how I want to live and how I want my art to be. I want to break open the norms of life, I want people to look at me and think how they want to be like that. How they want to have the guts to pursue what they love. I want to live a life without fear, live a life that constantly showing me new things. I want my art to FEEL real, I want it to set off that gut feeling in people, I want them to stop scrolling and stare for a little longer. I want to make an impact through my day to day life and my photographs. In saying this, this year I will only be taking on a limited amount of clients. for two reasons.
ONE: so that next year i can tackle it head on and possibly take on a whole new city (stay tuned).
TWO: I will be working on some personal projects, rekindle my passion and get back to my roots.
I will be blogging a lot more personal posts over the course of 2015, and I’m excited.
What’re two things YOU want to do this year to help you live more authentically?